Thursday, February 25, 2010

Si beh hard to let go and move forward

Sigh.. been thinking of some one lately and find it difficult to let Go... yes, Letting go is a skill. Wonder how they person can let go and begin a new life. Perhaps I have "invested" a lot... and now RUGI a lot. Like a burnt in my wallet.

Now, I am also in the midst of worrying for my future. What AM I Suppose to do to satisfy the emptiness in my heart? It seems like I am not happy and capable in teaching. If it is not my field, where should I head to?

Politics? Serving the people?

Questions unanswered.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Something fun to share...

When u r 1 year old (yo), your angpow sure got a lot! When u r 5 yo, angpow increase by 20% since some of your uncle aunty start to get married; you also look cute and lovely. When you are 10, you begin to have distance relationship with your relatives because your father figure it is best to live oversea or get ya life stuck in city of GOLD. Your Angpow terribly reduced and you only got 1k. When you turned 20 yo, they realise that you are not that lovely anymore. They give you RM 1 as a symbol of love. When you turned 30 yo, the person who gives you angpow say: "I am not going to give anymore. Enough is enough. Now its your turn to payback!"

Friday, January 15, 2010

A random grumbling that need time to heal

Been upset on several matters including where do I really belong.

The amount of pressure working in a kindergarten had put me in a crossroad of whether I really belong in this line. Have I rush into this field without considering it? The pressure as in handling the children. Got really frustrated! Not angry, but not knowing how after so many months working there...

Tons of questions left unanswered. What is the problem with me? Why is it difficult for me to handle children? Self help Books, guidance from my superior, & others also helped me. Yet, I cannot see the clearer picture of it. What is wrong with me.... I am tired physically. Rest is all I need during weekend.

There r more... but for today, just until here.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Back at one piece.. Amazing YLDP!

It was Amazing for me to attend YLDP 2009 as this will be the last YLDP before the Youth Quake comes! YEAH! Heard a lot about YQ but have not attended one. Sigh...

But it was good for me to help out at YLDP.

I think this will be the last YLDP I am helping out. Uncertain of how the future will be like. Wonderful journey for me. Glad to meet so many young people. I certainly hope that I have some how touch the heart of young people, of course, not with my own strength, but GOD.

The last night of the plenary session, GOD (or may be my imagination) showed me "Sabah" again.
The sunrise at MOUNT KK.

At KK town over seeing the Island.

Can't recall her name d. Work at national park. Heard she no longer work there.

This is a school. Covered by Trees.

Like I said before, the skies memang beautiful! Saya Sanjungmu Tuhan!

Yeah, been few times that I thought about it. Shared it with uncle H and he gave me a contact that is currently ministering in Sabah. Look set to be a good starting point. TEST THE WATER! Yeah, I should just go and test the water to see how will I be doing there!

More about YLDP:

FUN to torture the youth! I still remember when I was handling the games, one of the youth was saying "SAVE ME" before she proceed to force her beautiful face into the pail full of water + corn starch & mentos! ahahah! Some of them were spitting out the water and some spitted on the helpers... Lucky I haven't take my shower!

A girl was saying "I just had my shower! " LOL... FUn night la.. why take shower... sure dirty wan lah... :) :)

Games is fun, but there are meaning in it. Just hope you will see the lesson behind every games.

My devotional group: very quiet... but they have the positive mind to move forward when challenges come upon them. This also motivate me to plan for a motivation talk base on Christian Values and help to make them be a Positive Thinker!

Btw, We also saved a SOUL! Thank GOD for Wei ling and Lawrence, they shared with this guy who work for the caterer.

Miss the cold weather now!

SOOOOO HOT when I am back to KL!!!!

A long way to go... Every day something for us to learn!

K, brain stuck d... more to come when I am inspired!

Monday, November 16, 2009

What Sunday School really teach us?

This was sent to me by a friend. Just wanna share over here.


The Sunday School teacher was describing how Lot's wife looked back and turned into a pillar of salt, when little Jason interrupted, 'My Mommy looked back once while she was driving,' he announced triumphantly, 'and she turned into a telephone pole!'


A Sunday school teacher was telling her class the story of the Good Samaritan. She asked the class, 'If you saw a person lying on the roadside, wounded and bleeding, what would you do?'

A thoughtful little girl broke the hushed silence, 'I think I'd throw up.'


A Sunday school teacher asked, 'Johnny, do you think Noah did a lot of fishing when he was on the Ark ?'

'No,' replied Johnny. 'How could he, with just two worms?'


A Sunday school teacher said to her children, 'We have been learning how powerful kings and queens were in Bible times, but there is a Higher Power. Can anybody tell me what it is?'

One child blurted out, 'Aces!'


Nine-year-old Joey was asked by his mother what he had learned in Sunday School.
'Well, Mom, our teacher told us how God sent Moses behind enemy lines on a rescue mission to lead the Israelites out of Egypt . When he got to the Red Sea , he had his army build a pontoon bridge and all the people walked across safely. Then he radioed headquarters for reinforcements. They sent bombers to blow up the bridge and all the Israelites were saved.'

'Now, Joey, is that really what your teacher taught you?' his mother asked.
'Well, no, Mom. But, if I told it the way the teacher did, you'd never believe it!'


A Sunday School teacher decided to have her young class memorize one of the most quoted passages in the Bible - Psalm 23. She gave the youngsters a month to learn the chapter.
Little Rick was excited about the task - but he just couldn't remember the Psalm. After much practice, he could barely get past the first line.

On the day that the kids were scheduled to recite Psalm 23 in front of the congregation, Ricky was so nervous. When it was his turn, he stepped up to the microphone and said proudly, 'The Lord is my Shepherd, and that's all I need to know.'


A Rabbi said to a precocious six-year-old boy, 'Your mother says your prayers for you each night? That's very commendable. What does she say?'
The little boy replied, 'Thank God he's in bed!'


The preacher's 5 year-old daughter noticed that her father always paused and bowed his head for a moment before starting his sermon. One day, she asked him why.
'Well, Honey,' he began, proud that his daughter was so observant of his messages, 'I'm asking the Lord to help me preach a good sermon.'

'So, how come He doesn't?' she asked.


During the minister's prayer one Sunday, there was a loud whistle from one of the back pews.
Tommy's mother was horrified. She pinched him into silence and, after church, asked, 'Tommy, whatever made you do such a thing?'

Tommy answered soberly, 'I asked God to teach me to whistle, and He did!'


A pastor asked a little boy if he said his prayers every night.
'Yes, sir.' the boy replied.
'And, do you always say them in the morning, too?' the pastor asked.
'No sir,' the boy replied. 'I ain't scared in the daytime.'


When my daughter, Kelli, said her bedtime prayers, she would bless every family member, every friend, and every pet, current and past.
For several weeks, after we had finished the nightly prayer, Kelli would say, 'All girls.' This soon became part of her nightly routine, to include this closing. My curiosity got the best of me and I asked her, 'Kelli, why do you always add the part about all girls?'
Her response, 'Because everybody always finishes their prayers by saying 'All Men'!'


Little Johnny and his family were having Sunday dinner at his grandmother's house. Everyone was seated around the table as the food was being served. When Little Johnny received his plate, he started eating right away.
'Johnny! Please wait until we say our prayer.' said his mother.
'I don't need to,' the boy replied.
'Of course, you do.' his mother insisted. 'We always say a prayer before eating at our house.'
'That's at our house.' Johnny explained. 'But this is Grandma's house and she knows how to cook!'

Friday, October 23, 2009

filming a movie

Filming is not an easy task. Location, actor/actresses, director, equipment and other related stuff need to be considered. I had my first taste of fliming. SO many retake and actions that need to improve. However, after we try for so many times and get the best scene, it is pretty satisfying. :)

Tiring, but hope the end result is something that worth our sacrifices. :)


Thursday, September 10, 2009

where AM i heading?

This title was in my friend MSN for some time.. I find my self pondering on this issue...

there have been lots of rubbish that is happening right now. My mind is so cramp with all this ridiculous things.

Where am I heading? As from GOD view.

Politics is darn ugly. Malaysia is not in shape. But God has been telling me this: "Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute." Proverbs 31:8

My future seems dark, where am I heading is a question i must ponder on. I felt so insecure lately.

Only GOD knows.

Another day to strife.